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For Steve
[This is a bad idea.
Bucky knows it as soon as he stops outside the little community centre where these classes run and he sees the other students milling about, chatting to each other in their own little cliques. The thing has been running for a while, it's an art group for anyone with any sort of mental health issue - depression, anxiety, psychosis. He's here for PTSD, practically bullied into it by his therapist at the VA, under the instructions that he needs to get out and start socialising more.
There are only six other people, four women and two men, and it already feels like too large a crowd. He makes sure his prosthetic is properly covered by a glove and long sleeve, stuffed into his pocket so nobody can tell it hangs strangely, and slouches in at the back. From the conversations he can overhear, blonde woman and redhead woman have anxiety issues, brunette #1 and the two men all have depression, and brunette #2 has psychosis. They're all so open with each other, chatting about medications and coping techniques and the work they've been doing in class already.
One of them approaches him and asks his name, and what he's there for, but he just glowers at her until she retreats again. He doesn't want anyone to know why he's here, and he's only here so Wilson will stop goddamn riding him about it.
He slumps into the seat nearest the back and waits for the teacher to arrive, already sure this is going to be a waste of time...]
Bucky knows it as soon as he stops outside the little community centre where these classes run and he sees the other students milling about, chatting to each other in their own little cliques. The thing has been running for a while, it's an art group for anyone with any sort of mental health issue - depression, anxiety, psychosis. He's here for PTSD, practically bullied into it by his therapist at the VA, under the instructions that he needs to get out and start socialising more.
There are only six other people, four women and two men, and it already feels like too large a crowd. He makes sure his prosthetic is properly covered by a glove and long sleeve, stuffed into his pocket so nobody can tell it hangs strangely, and slouches in at the back. From the conversations he can overhear, blonde woman and redhead woman have anxiety issues, brunette #1 and the two men all have depression, and brunette #2 has psychosis. They're all so open with each other, chatting about medications and coping techniques and the work they've been doing in class already.
One of them approaches him and asks his name, and what he's there for, but he just glowers at her until she retreats again. He doesn't want anyone to know why he's here, and he's only here so Wilson will stop goddamn riding him about it.
He slumps into the seat nearest the back and waits for the teacher to arrive, already sure this is going to be a waste of time...]
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Sure, we've said pancakes so many times now that I'm getting real hungry.
[He turns back towards the apartment building.]
Okay, what do you not have? We need eggs, flour, milk, salt, sugar, and syrup. Maybe bananas and ice cream.
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[Miscommunication dealt with, Steve falls in step beside Bucky again.]
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[He glances sideways at Steve.]
Why don't you head back, see if you can remember the route, and I'll go pick up the ingredients?
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You're just trying to get rid of me, aren't you? [It's a joke.]
Okay, you got a phone number though so I can call if I get hopelessly lost?
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[He smiles, easy and teasing. It's good, he can go himself and then Steve won't see him if he embarrasses himself by freaking out in the store.]
Here, hand me your phone, I'll put it in.
[He doesn't know quite what possesses him, but if Steve hands his phone over then Bucky puts his number in next to the name "Buck Me" as a joke.]
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[Of course Steve hands his phone over. His contact list is a limited one and he rarely has silly names.
Of course, he did just have that text conversation with Nat still loaded, probably.]
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Not that Steve would be left alone for long, his phone ringing after only a moment with Natasha's number. Yes, she was spying on him. She might be a ballerina but she was also a terrifying ballerina who was bored and out of her apartment until the smell of dog puke went away.]
He's cute. [She jumps right into it when he answers, not even slightly ashamed of spying.] And he obviously thinks you're hot, so you should definitely ask him out.
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And, you know, almost chokes with Natasha's greeting.]
Nat!
[Steve sputtered briefly and stopped in place, looking around for any sign of her.]
Are you following us?
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Of course.
[The grin is evident in her voice.]
We care about you, Steve, it's been too long since you had a date. We wanted to make sure you weren't screwing it up, and that Mr. Hot Vet With The Long Hair was good enough for you.
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His name is Bucky. He lives in the apartment above me, and I'd rather focus on being friends. I don't want to... scare him off. Him being nice doesn't mean he's interested.
[Nevermind that there was Phil who was utterly in love with Steve from Freshmen year to Senior year who Steve literally never noticed. He's really good at reading body language and the whole emotional knowledge thing except when it comes to people having feelings for him. He keeps attributing it to him feeling overly hopeful and seeing things where they clearly aren't.]
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[She scoffs, finally meandering out of her hiding place and hanging up the phone so that she can wander alongside him. Her gaze up to him is both fond and exasperated, she loves him but he's so clueless.]
What was the last date you went on? How long has it been since you've had sex? It's not healthy, Steve, I'm just looking out for you.
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It's not important when I last had a relationship or the rest.
[Years. It's been years.]
He could be straight. Statistically, he is probably straight.
sorry for the delay!
[She says it with total conviction even though she's never met him, never even spoken to him.]
The way he looked at you is not the way a straight man looks at another straight man, he might as well have been one of those cartoon dogs with the popping eyes and wagging tongue.
no worries! I'm on the tail end of a vacation myself
I... I don't know how to even begin to flirt with him. We're making pancakes when we get back.
hope it was a good one!
[The way she says it, she makes it sound positively filthy. Teasing aside, though, she does want this to go well. Steve is a good person, one of the best she knows, and he deserves to at least try to find happiness somewhere.]
You don't have to flirt with him, why don't you start by just asking him out? The worst he can say is no.
very good, thank you!
... Maybe. After pancakes. I don't want to make it weird.
excellent :)
[She sighs, but it's affectionate, and leans over to bump his shoulder.]
Are we still in high school? Do you need me to pass a note to him and pull his hair for you?
I THOUGHT I HAD RESPONDED TO THIS GDI
[And yet coming from Steve that sounds less like a bad thing and more along the lines of something charming about him. Like his dreamy eyes.]
... I was ... thinking about asking him to be my resident model. That doesn't sound weird does it?
I'm so glad you came back! :D
It sounds like the dorkiest thing ever, but you should try it. Just do me a favour and go for it, he's definitely into you, I can tell.
I should have checked sooner I was trying to not be a bother orz I'LL CHECK FASTER NEXT TIME
[Steve bumps shoulders back with her.]
Go on now before he comes back out, I already gotta think of what to say when he asks why I'm still hanging around.
<3 I would probably have poked you in another few days, but I didn't want to be pushy
[She fixes him with the sort of look that says she will consider kicking his ass despite being half his size.]
But fine, fine... I'm going. Run away if you want, or wait here for him, your choice.
[She flicks her hand carelessly and turns to walk away, but Steve would be silly if he thought she wouldn't stick around and spy from a distance again.]
<3
He does watch her go, exasperated fondness on her face. He looks towards the apartment building, judging distance and time, then back to the store before he decides to just wait for Bucky out here. He can try to find his own way tomorrow and hopefully not get lost, but considering how long he spent talking to Natasha he figures there's no real point in not waiting.]
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The lights are too bright, the hum of the air conditioning unit is too loud, the aisles are deadly in the way they block line of sight and make it easy for any ambush to come. He's only in there ten minutes, but by the time he manages to make it out with pancake ingredients, he looks like death warmed over. Pale, sweating, and trembling ever so slightly.
He's not pleased to see Steve still there when he's such a mess, he thought he'd have the walk back to pull back together. It's an effort, but he tries to look more normal as he gets closer.]
Thought you were going to head back?
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Ran into Natasha just after you went in, actually - I think she wanted to check in and make sure I was making friends and not getting stabbed trying to stop an old lady's purse from getting stolen or something. Happens one time and you never live it down, you know? Anyway - she just left, so ... figured I might as well wait the extra minute so we could walk together. Otherwise you'd probably catch me at a crosswalk and if I told you this story then you'd probably think I was some kind of idiot that not only got lost easily but then couldn't fess up to it.
[When in doubt, the truth will set you free.]
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Of course he helped little old ladies. Goddamn, but Steve was like some kind of perfect ideal of what a clean-cut American boy should be, all blond hair and blue eyes and earnest goodness. He can't help but snort, some of the tension leaking from his shoulders.]
You seriously got knifed trying to stop a mugging? When we get back to your place, am I going to see a spandex costume and mask from where you stop crime at night?
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bed for me now!
have a good night!
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