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Bucky Barnes ([personal profile] advanced) wrote in [community profile] fossilised2017-04-26 04:19 pm

For Steve

[This is a bad idea.

Bucky knows it as soon as he stops outside the little community centre where these classes run and he sees the other students milling about, chatting to each other in their own little cliques. The thing has been running for a while, it's an art group for anyone with any sort of mental health issue - depression, anxiety, psychosis. He's here for PTSD, practically bullied into it by his therapist at the VA, under the instructions that he needs to get out and start socialising more.

There are only six other people, four women and two men, and it already feels like too large a crowd. He makes sure his prosthetic is properly covered by a glove and long sleeve, stuffed into his pocket so nobody can tell it hangs strangely, and slouches in at the back. From the conversations he can overhear, blonde woman and redhead woman have anxiety issues, brunette #1 and the two men all have depression, and brunette #2 has psychosis. They're all so open with each other, chatting about medications and coping techniques and the work they've been doing in class already.

One of them approaches him and asks his name, and what he's there for, but he just glowers at her until she retreats again. He doesn't want anyone to know why he's here, and he's only here so Wilson will stop goddamn riding him about it.

He slumps into the seat nearest the back and waits for the teacher to arrive, already sure this is going to be a waste of time...]
andstripes: (you sit there in your heartache)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-04 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Steve hugs Natasha back, tight enough to project his insecurity even if he HAD been doing a good job hiding it.

Natasha's probably his oldest and best friend that's anywhere near close to where he is now. Of course, there's Peggy - childhood friend type and all - but she lives an ocean away now and is dealing with her own divorce and love triangle between the sweet waitress Angie and the apparently sexy but probably crazy Dottie who is strangely great with Peggy's daughter though.]


I just... I don't want to screw this up. I've never felt so attracted to someone like this before, Nat. Also we live in the same building so if it bombs this is going to be super awkward.
andstripes: (Little smile)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-05 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[Steve steps back finally, making a bit of a face at the 'even Tony loves you' comment, though he's got that fond smile coming back out again.]

Thanks, Nat. Alright, lets get these errands started before I second guess everything.

[He shoves the shopping list in his back pocket along with phone, wallet, and keys.]

Oh... he, uh. [Steve pauses, gives a little grin, and blushes a bit.] When he put his number into my phone he listed his name as "Buck Me". That was before I asked him out, too.
andstripes: (That's worrying)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
[Steve does not protest that Natasha had called him literally right after Bucky had done that and then come over, so he actually didn’t see it until much later that night.

He COULD change Bucky’s name in his phone. He hasn’t, though. It gives him a little thrill every time he looks at it, so sue him.

Hearing the commotion outside the door and through the hallway, Steve tries to picture Natasha meeting Bucky and his sister. Of Bucky’s sister meeting Natasha. Of the potential new dog in the mix. It may be too many people for Bucky.

If they run into them in the hall, though - they can always just say hi and bye. They were, genuinely, just heading out anyway.

Steve gives Natasha a very serious look.]


Behave yourself.

[Please, please, no explicit comments. Even if Bucky seems like a major flirt as well - Steve couldn’t take it. He opens the door to head out to the stairwell. If they manage to run into Bucky and Becca, well, they’ll say hi. If not, Steve is seeing Bucky tomorrow. No pressure, really. Breathe.]
andstripes: (Little smile)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
[Steve’s hardly better than Bucky there.

Seeing him stumble he moves forward to assist, though Bucky catches himself and it means Steve is just now standing much closer to him than is strictly necessary for a conversation really and he’s got that sort of breathless smile of a person who is noticing absolutely nothing else in the world save for the person right in front of him.]


Hi.

[A second later of course he remembers, right, Natasha is here. Natasha who could possibly ignore Steve’s plea to behave herself, and with a new dog and Bucky’s sister around.

This could be very, very bad. Steve, quick, get ahold of the situation.]


Natasha - she’s the friend I’m always talking about. My former roommate too. She just came over to help me on a couple errands that needed doing. … Cute dog.
andstripes: (Serious)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 11:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Rebecca has no idea how much Natasha probably just saved her life right then. As Steve shook her hand he was debating whether he should pretend this was their first meeting or say something to Bucky after all when Natasha has to pipe up like that.

He hadn’t mentioned the fake arm or the service dog, actually. He did mention Bucky was a vet, and even if Steve didn’t bring up the PTSD he did originally talk about Bucky in the context of the class Steve met him in and Natasha was always keenly observant when it came to people so Steve doesn’t doubt she could guess even if he said nothing at all.

He still goes a little red.]


It’s fine, don’t worry - Natasha is clearly going to ignore my plea for her to behave herself so it’ll be better for my sense of shame if she doesn’t have more chances to go into embarrassing college stories. I’m, uh. I’m really looking forward to tomorrow, though.
andstripes: (you sit there in your heartache)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
NATASHA!

[Riiight, there goes Steve’s face. Of all the stories you could tell, Natasha -

Bright red, Steve grabs Natasha’s arm quickly to direct her DOWN THE STAIRS AND AWAY.]


ByeBuckyI’llseeyoutomorrowgoodtoseeyou

[Yes all that is said in one single breath as Steve makes as fast a retreat out to the sidewalk as he can manage. And then he’s glaring at Natasha a glare that is the closest to pure murder as Steve Rogers has ever done in his life.]
andstripes: (Serious)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 11:50 am (UTC)(link)
[With any luck Steve will get another chance to hear that, ideally under more favorable circumstances.

Instead he’s outside, too busy glaring at Natasha.]


You know what - I can handle the shopping by myself, thanks anyway. I will consider calling you on Monday.
andstripes: (:()

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 11:57 am (UTC)(link)
It was one request, Natasha!

[He is a big softie, and he’s more hurt than angry. Steve probably does get too easily embarrassed about things, but this is a guy he’s still getting to know who Steve very desperately wants to think well of him.

So, you know, Steve is also still so red he’s practically glowing.]
andstripes: (you sit there in your heartache)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 12:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[Any bit of anger hanging around drains pretty thoroughly at that. Much as Steve hates to admit it, Natasha is right. She’s usually right.

He covers his face with his hands and just sort of slumps to the sidewalk, his back against the brick of the building.]


He’s going to think I’m an idiot now and never want to see me again.
andstripes: (Taking notes)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 12:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[Steve's embarrassment isn't going to go away any tim3 soon, but she's right in that they're burning daylight here. He gives her another glare that's more sort of pathetic than actually angry before giving a great sigh and pulling himself back to his feet.

His mood will improve the more they're out, anyway. Even if getting condoms and some very flattering tight pants does make him sputter a bit.]
andstripes: (That's worrying)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 12:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[Eleven o’clock on the dot and Steve is knocking at Bucky’s door. He’d already showered and made a bunch of pancakes and have them all set out with a cloth over them to keep them warm, though he left things out in case Bucky wants more.

Steve may have woken up before the crack of dawn for all his fretting. He made quite a bit of pancakes to make up for that fretting. Even the shower doesn’t really mask the scent, so he ends up smelling mostly like coconut pancakes when he goes to get Bucky, trying not to fidget at the door.]
andstripes: (Little smile)

[personal profile] andstripes 2017-07-06 12:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[Again, Steve is a little too distracted by Bucky himself to even try getting a look in his apartment anyway. Steve thought Bucky was attractive before, but seeing him all done up in bad boy splendor... If he does that low flirty voice again Steve knows he'll have no chance.

He swallows the lump in his throat. The first attempt at a hello doesn't really het anything more than an 'uh' but the second mostly works.]


Uh- H-hi, uh. Good morning. You look, um. Are you really single? You can't be.

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