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I come from a land of ice and snow

Asgard sat atop the branches of Yggdrasil since time began, and little had changed in their society in the years since. Each Asgardian was long-lived into the millennia, their lands were fertile, their people brave and strong. They had their vassals, their allies, and their enemies. Yet even those who opposed them respected the might of the Golden Dias, and the royalty who sat upon it. Currently that was Odin Borson, though he grew weary more easily now and had begun to consider passing the throne to his eldest son.

He had been blessed with many children, but only two that he considered worthy of his lineage and status. His firstborn, Thor, strong and honourable and everything an Asgardian warrior should be. His second son, Loki, was not natural born, though none knew that but his wife. He was different, a creature of magic and mayhem, of sharp intelligence. Both were worthy, but together they would take Asgard to a new prosperity, he was certain of it.

Midgard, where the mortals dwelt, was a land raided every few centuries for stock. It was seen as a breeding ground, much like a corral for cattle. Mortals were lesser, short-lived and weak, they were fit only as slaves. The last raid had taken place when Loki had been but a baby, nearly a thousand years ago, but the mortals that had been taken had been bred and cared for so that a healthy slave population still thrived. Slaves were given a weakened mixture of Idunn's crop with their food, to extend their natural lives to at least a few centuries in order to make them worth the effort to train. They had no rights, but they were taught well that this was their natural position.

All slave children were raised in a central pen and taught the same when small, those that then displayed talent at cooking, riding, hunting, housework, artisan skills, or singing were then measured off to be specially trained for higher masters. Every five years those who could afford to buy a slave, or those of high enough status to simply demand them, came to the corral and chose. Those who were chosen were special, were envied, and those who were not ended up working the fields out in the far reaches of Asgard, the most menial of work.

Anthony and Steven had been friends since they were little and being raised in the large pens together. Both had excelled, Anthony at crafting and Steven at warrior's skills, but neither were chosen when they were five, nor ten, nor even fifteen. Now, at twenty, it was their final chance to be chosen before they would be assigned to one of the meanest farmers beyond the borders of the great capital. Steven woke Anthony as the dawn rose, mingled excitement and nerves on his face.

"Anthony! Wake up, I've got news! I heard the overseer talking to one of the passing guards, and Princes Thor and Loki are coming to the corral today."

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Bucky didn't care about ripped buttons or pretty much anything except getting closer to Steve right now. It didn't matter that they were already pressed together, he wanted to feel their skin together, feel the heartbeat in his chest and the lifeblood in his veins, he wanted everything.

He bit at Steve's lip, just lightly, as he released his hold on Steve's erection just long enough to tug at his own pants to open them too. It was an invitation he had never given Steve before, implicit permission to touch as well, to go to more intimate areas than he had ever been allowed before.

Steve's only reaction was excitement. He immediately took that invitation, with relish, not thinking about the hows or the whys of it. Though he couldn't call any of this muscle memory since he had been raised good and Catholic, Steve had never dared to touch himself, and he'd only been touched by Bucky a handful of times.

But there was that latent memory of childhood curiosity where he and Bucky had sat on the ground, facing each other, hands fumbling inside of trousers, cheeks pink with lust and guilt and a desire to kiss one another though they hadn't given into that secondary sin.

Besides, Steve was a fast learner. He knew what he liked and he could figure out pretty easily what it was that Bucky liked too.

Enthusiasm was always one of Steve's strong suits.

Bucky hadn't been touched in a way to actually make him feel good in decades, in what felt like a lifetime. Even when he had touched Steve in their few forays into intimacy after marriage, he had never quite got an erection himself, as if his body was no longer capable of that kind of stimulation.

Boy, was he wrong.

With just a few touches of Steve's hand, he was hard and throbbing against his husband's palm, breath gushing out in a hot and sudden exhale as his head fell forwards to rest on Steve's shoulder.

"Steve-- Steve!"

Whatever he was doing it had to be awesome for Bucky to say his name like that. "I've got you," he said, which was true in more ways than one. He didn't increase his speed or his hold so much as wrapped his arm around his husband to hold him nice and close. He wanted all of that passion pressed against his skin, which was surprisingly easy to do with Bucky huffing against his neck.

He kissed his cheek and the top of his head and let the ride carry him on. He was thick and hard and Mostly out of his own pants, and a good shake of his hips caused them to fall to his ankles. He picked Bucky up and stepped back three times to drop them both onto the bed so that Bucky could enjoy what he'd been doing to Steve for awhile now.

There was no teenage fumbling. Just the genuine desire of one man wanting to please another.

Steve was a man like no other, and Bucky wasn't sure what he had done in a past life to deserve someone as wonderful for himself. But it must have been something amazing. He didn't know anyone who could be denied time and time again, by someone meant to be their spouse, and still be so eager and genuine and unselfish when he finally got what he had been waiting for.

"Steve, I want-- god, I want you. All of you. I don't want to stop."

He was kind of scared that if he left it at this, that somehow his old neuroses would come back and the next time they did this then he wouldn't be able to go any further. He wanted everything, wanted to give himself to Steve completely, to prove that it would feel good.

His hand closed around Steve's cock again, the fake one this time, the metal cool against heated skin as he began to stroke as if in encouragement for agreeing to what he asked for.

Steve had been enjoying his first trip over Bucky's body with his mouth, having gotten as far as a nipple, when he suddenly found himself in flabbergasted shock. Lips left contact with flesh and he tilted his head up to gaze at Bucky in momentary confusion. "Wha--- uuuhhhh, jeez, Buck--" There was something delicious about having that cool metal wrapped around the heat of his skin. He dropped his head again for a moment to return to enjoying the way that nipple hardened against his tongue when Bucky's request caught up to him and a lightbulb all but flashed over his head.

Steve scrambled back onto his knees and sat on his heels.

"One second. Don't... Uh... You stay there," he said, leaping from bed towards the tiny bathroom. He'd suffered enough of Tony's unsolicited advice to know that lubrication was in need and was singularly glad that he hadn't thrown out the small tube that the inventor had handed him on the sly during his wedding celebration.

He'd felt embarrassed by it at first, but right now he could kiss Tony as he stumbled back to Bucky with it clutched between one hand. His eyes were a wild, lustful, adventurous blue. He had the same look on his face that he had when he taunted Bucky about going for a swim off of the boardwalk at Coney Island.

Steve wasn't afraid.

He was never afraid save for when he thought he was losing Bucky.

"You sure? Real sure? I can stop at any time. You just tell me, pal."

If this wasn't such a big deal for him, Bucky might have laughed at how much like an adorable puppy Steve seemed as he all but bounced off the bed and fled into the bathroom to grab the lubrication. The people that seemed to think that Captain America was sexless because of what he represented ought to see him now, so desperate that his cock was leaking precome and his eyes were a deeper blue than they had ever been.

"Quit stalling, punk, or I might think you're the one who doesn't want to."

Of course he was scared.

Merging with his other selves didn't change what had happened to him, it didn't erase that kind of trauma, but it gave him a glimpse into a thousand lives and a thousand futures, and in every single one there had always been one constant - Steve would never hurt him. He wanted this more than he was scared of it, he didn't want to die again with regrets.

A breathy sort of laugh left Steve's mouth as he leaned in to kiss Bucky with a sweet, if heady, tenderness. "No, trust me, I want to."

As far as Steve was concerned, this was their first time, their honeymoon night. Bucky might have suffered from abuse designed to break him, or to indoctrinate him, out of a need for power or just the pleasure of his handler. But that was not love making. That was something completely outside of a marital bed.

Steve was careful but moved with a surety in himself and in his ability. He didn't need to know what to do because his body already did. Instead, he pushed back any doubt he'd had and was swift but still kind bringing their bodies together.

The momentary bliss was blinding. He hadn't expected that warm velvet, the tightness, nor the heat of being inside of another living body. Steve shuddered in pleasure and kissed his husband with gentle need.

He knew what to expect.

Or he thought he did.

Bucky thought that the intrusion would be painful, it would be something to be endured because he loved Steve. He had no idea that the person underneath could feel good too, that when this was done with gentleness and care, that it wasn't just agony and violation. It was an entirely different act altogether.

He moaned against Steve's lips and rolled his hips down to meet him, one of the benefits of his bastardised serum meaning that he could actually recover from the slight burn of being penetrated faster and find the pleasure almost immediately. He reached up to smooth his hands over the hard planes of muscle on Steve's chest, rolling one of his nipples between his fingers.

Despite the serum, Steve was still working up a sweat. He could smell himself on Bucky and he could smell Bucky smearing his own excitement and lust on his skin as well. He was gentle in more than just angle and thrust, he also stroked up Bucky's thigh from hip to knee as the muscles squeezed against him.

It was more intense than Steve thought it could be. Sex had always been elusive as a concept. He understood that it was supposed to feel good, he'd been part of that locker room chat for a long time given the gender he grew up in and the war and how freely everyone spoke in this century. He just had no capacity for understanding how transcending it could be until Bucky responded to him, until their scents mingled, until their bodies joined like this.

Steve had incredible stamina, but his husband found a way to override that and before too long, what Bucky usually cleaned up with his tongue was satisfyingly spent inside of him instead with Steve alternated kissing Bucky and gaze down into his face with their foreheads pressed together.

He was no longer a virgin. He had finally consummated his marriage. And despite the constant bout of trouble occurring outside, for once, everything felt right.

Bucky wound his arms around Steve when they finished within seconds of each other and pulled him down to lay beside him properly, feeling the dampness of both of their bodies cool down slowly. It was-- peaceful. He hadn't felt like this for a long time and there was a smile on his lips as he pillowed his head on Steve's chest.

"Thanks, pal."

Maybe not the most romantic thing to say to someone after sleeping with them, but it's what came out all the same.

"You sure you've never done that before?"

Since neither really knew how to be romantic with each other anyway, and their friendship has always been borderline romantic from the start, 'thanks pal' was a perfectly acceptable response. Steve cradled Bucky in one arm and propped his head up with the other bent behind him.

He couldn't stop smiling and he didn't try not to, grinning openly at the ceiling as he listened to Bucky breathing.

"I've done it a whole lot of times," he confessed. "In my head though. But I've got a pretty good track record with getting my thoughts out on paper."

For some reason that was one of the sweetest things that Bucky had ever heard, but it was also one of the funniest. Especially when he literally imagined all of those times Steve had sat concentrated on his piece of paper as he drew any old thing, as if he had been secretly masturbating in his head that whole time.

"Kinky," he murmured in a gravelly voice and rolled closer to Steve. "So all them drawings of old Mrs. Siddons, they were just-- what? You exploring your old age phase?"

It was like finally breaking down the last barrier between him and Steve had, for a moment, fully relaxed every part of him and let him be more who he was under the paranoia and fear. A teasing jerk.

"Technically we're old age right now," Steve returned with a casual lightness, even if he was feeling just shy of overwhelmed with everything that had happened. His chest felt full of air, like he might just up and pop at any second now. Giddiness threatened to make him giggle at any moment and he ran his hand through Bucky's long hair as he relaxed against his chest. Half of Steve was still reeling from the fact that his best friend was in love with him and that they were married.

Sex on top of all that seemed like an extra large helping of whipped cream and a hundred cherries piled on high.

"I guess I've just always liked 'em mature. Doesn't really explain you though, huh? Guess you're a fluke." He leaned up to kiss the top of Bucky's head.

"Jerk."

It's said fondly even as he pushes a bit closer to Steve, feeling boneless and relaxed for the first time in forever. He should be getting up, they both should, Steve had a meeting with the people locked up in one of the low buildings in a little bit to try and persuade them that slavery was wrong no matter what-- but-- But he didn't want to move.

For the first time in decades, he genuinely felt like he might fall asleep in a bed with Steve next to him.

"I've always been more mature'n you, which one of us got into a hundred dumb fights, huh?"

"Woah, us? I got them on the ropes without you," Steve teased. He had been so tenacious as a kid, so scrappy, but he never just picked fights. There had always been a reason for ass kicking he had ever gotten, even if it didn't end up teaching any particular lessons in the long run. Bullies remained bullies. And he never learned to stop trying to protect everyone against them.

At least they had a few hours like this. Bucky's muscles suddenly slipping into relaxation against him made Steve feel fantastic. It was still early in the afternoon. They should eat something. He should consult the council on what to say with the other Tony Stark. He should at least consult their Tony-- And as much as Steve wanted to tease Bucky right now about falling asleep so soon after waking up... Instead, Steve shifted his body towards him and stroked little doodles into the back of his shoulder.

"You got into trouble all on your own," he continued, catching a contagious yawn. "You could have just held my coat and waited."

"Couldn't," he mumbled, half asleep already. "Couldn't let you get hurt, it was like gettin' hurt myself. But worse."

Somehow it had always been more acceptable to him to have a bunch of bloodied wounds himself than to see Steve with even a single bruise. Ever since he met that scrappy little skinny bastard, he had been in love even if he hadn't known it. Nobody would ever come close to meaning to him what Steve meant to him.

He meant to say something else, but all of a sudden he was asleep. Not curled up tight in the closet with one eye half open and his hand on a weapon, but sprawled out with his head pillowed on his husband.

Steve tried to will himself to stay awake, to enjoy naked skin against his own and to count Bucky's breaths, but he couldn't. The combination of exhaustion through giddiness, the sex act itself, and how comfortable he currently felt made Steve's whole body relax and soon, he was asleep too.

By the time Steve woke, it was just growing dark on Vanaheim and all of the fires were lit. He groaned, kissing Bucky's nose and forehead, as he slipped his arm out from under him.

"I need to talk to everyone," he murmured to his husband. "And get something to eat. But first...? Care for a shower?"

Bucky mumbled something incoherent and rolled a bit onto his side, though he still kept his head pressing down on Steve's chest as though he could keep him there through sheer will alone.

"No talking, no shower, just stay here."

He wanted to be selfish for once.

He knew they weren't allowed to be, that they had to see to duty and care for everyone else, but god-- he wanted to be selfish. He wanted his moment to spend all day in bed with the man he loved and do nothing except relax, he wanted to pretend that life could still be calm and peaceful.

"You don't smell that bad."

It took a little nudging, but eventually Bucky was on his side with Steve fitted against him, long legs pressing against the backs of his thighs and his arm around his waist. "It's not about smelling bad," Steve grinned against Bucky's ear as he set his chin against the curve of his shoulder. "It was just an excuse to stay close to you."

And hadn't they been making those excuses for most of their lives? Steve was always sick and so Bucky had to stay over. Bucky needed help with math and so Steve had to tutor him. Bucky had a date and so Steve needed to escort that date's best friend--

Never mind that they ended up mostly being on dates with each other, not that Bucky was neglectful of the ladies, but they couldn't help themselves.

"But I'll stay." He hadn't given Anthony a time. Morning was morning. He could spend the night here and talk to everyone first thing.

The last time they had lain spooning like this, it had been Bucky that was the big spoon. It had been the depths of winter in a particularly cold snap, they hadn't got much money and had used the last bit of their available heating. Bucky had been worried about the cold and damp going to Steve's chest, and so he had climbed in bed with him, beneath the scratchy blankets, and used his body heat to warm him from top to toe.

Even though he was a different size and shape now, even though Steve was the one holding on from behind, it still felt the same. Like coming home.

"M'glad I died," he muttered, not really thinking about how that would come out. "I don't think I would'a got here if I didn't."

Steve didn't like the sound of that. He was grateful for this Bucky, for one capable of letting himself be touched, but he also really didn't want to credit that with death. Steve exhaled slowly, a warm rush of air slipping over Bucky's cheek as he half curled around him, half laid over him.

"Do you remember it? What heaven was like?" Bucky, no matter his actions, could never go to hell. It wasn't his fault, what he was made to do, and God had to know that. Blue eyes closed, ready to be washed in soothing knowledge that there was more out there.

That he'd see their old friends again...his mom and dad too.

Bucky didn't reply at first because he wasn't sure if what he had to say would crush Steve or not. But in the end there was no way he could lie; not about this, not to Steve. He stayed where he is, cushioned in the comforting embrace of his husband, words soft as if he hoped that might lessen any blow.

"There was no Heaven, leastways not for me. It might exist out there, but I went to a place called Hel. There wasn't any of the fire and brimstone and nobody hurt me, it was just sorta... grey. There were Buckys there from all over; some of 'em like me, some died in the war. There were even a couple of dames."

It had been weird, but it had also felt natural.

"Between us we had every memory I could ever have had. I don't have them all back now but I'm more of me than I was and Steve... every one of them revolved around you. It's what made me realise I had to face my fears, you're my whole world even across universes and I'm lucky enough to have snagged you for a husband. I wasn't gonna waste that any more."

Steve was quiet. Not just quiet, but he stopped breathing for the moment, mostly to get all of his thoughts together. His conclusion was a very Steve Rogers one, in the end, after he weighed out every part of his life that had ever happened in a timeline of ever increasing What Even Is My Life moments. “School never prepared us for any of this.” Not for war, at least not for the actual fighting. It didn't prepare Steve for what would happen to him. Or for how he would nearly die in one decade and after being unfrozen, he would wake up and it wasn't illegal to love another man and very legal to marry one. No one taught them about aliens. Or alternate realities. And yet all of these things were real.

Now there wasn't a heaven, there was a place where all of these realities went when they died. Steve could barely get his head around that, try as he might, so he just accepted it as fact.

"Guess the translation between God and the people writing the Bible got messed up about that too. Not the first time that's happened." He wasn't an expert on the Bible but from what he saw, it could be a little off here or there.

His nose pressed into the back of Bucky's neck.

"Guess if your life revolves around me, though, I gotta be more careful with making sure that we stay together."

This was what made Steve Rogers much more than the average man. Not the serum, not the muscles, not the costume. It was the tenacity of his spirit, the way he fought back even when the odds were stacked astronomically against him and never gave up hope. Bucky should have known that even pulling the rug out from under his faith wouldn't do much more than make him all the more determined to live a good life.

He snorted quietly, smile at his lips that Steve couldn't see from behind him, and raised his left arm to thread metal fingers carefully through blond hair.

"You better believe it, pal, because I don't want to be apart from you again. Not until we both have to go on to the next life, wherever that turns out to be the next time it happens."

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True rp love is fighting through a phone tag. I SUCK at the bone tags

<3 That IS love

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