[Bucky said everything, so everything he'll get. Steve is happy enough to talk, curled up against Bucky like this. He talks about when he was young - the father he only knew from stories because he'd died overseas when Steve was too young to truly remember him. How for so many years it was basically just him and his mother, moving from base to base where she was needed and where there were more doctors to keep an eye on Steve when he was mostly a collection of symptoms and no solid answers.
How she died when he was sixteen because of some idiot ignoring quarantine procedures, how Steve had to be in quarantine for a time after that just to make sure he wasn't a carrier as well. How he had no living family at that point so it was a colleague of his mother's who ended up taking him, the kindly doctor Erskine. He found out what was wrong and kept Steve from dying before he hit eighteen.
How Doctor Erskine had died when Steve was nineteen killed by a domestic terrorist attack on the clinic he was working at.
He doesn't try to focus on the sad things, he truly doesn't, he's got a lot of happy memories mixed in as well. Cooking with his mom, the stories she'd tell about his dad, briefly meeting his later college friend Tony when they were both young because Doctor Erskine worked on a few projects with Tony's father and they hated each other at first. It's not intentional, all the sad memories, but Steve's life seems to be a series of losses. A very small number of people he could call close made smaller and smaller by each passing year until college and a group project brought his current friends group together and they just kind of stuck around.
About how he always worries that he's going to lose them too.]
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How she died when he was sixteen because of some idiot ignoring quarantine procedures, how Steve had to be in quarantine for a time after that just to make sure he wasn't a carrier as well. How he had no living family at that point so it was a colleague of his mother's who ended up taking him, the kindly doctor Erskine. He found out what was wrong and kept Steve from dying before he hit eighteen.
How Doctor Erskine had died when Steve was nineteen killed by a domestic terrorist attack on the clinic he was working at.
He doesn't try to focus on the sad things, he truly doesn't, he's got a lot of happy memories mixed in as well. Cooking with his mom, the stories she'd tell about his dad, briefly meeting his later college friend Tony when they were both young because Doctor Erskine worked on a few projects with Tony's father and they hated each other at first. It's not intentional, all the sad memories, but Steve's life seems to be a series of losses. A very small number of people he could call close made smaller and smaller by each passing year until college and a group project brought his current friends group together and they just kind of stuck around.
About how he always worries that he's going to lose them too.]