[Steve is really sweet, but he's also naive. He might think that it would be no problem to date someone like Bucky, but he knew better, he knew differently. When it came time for them to undress and he had to face the mess of what was under his clothes, or when Bucky couldn't go out to dinner again because of the crowds, or when he forgot another date and stood him up because his memory was faulty... well, he might not think that Bucky had a lot to offer then.
But maybe that's Steve's lookout to find out. Why should he deny himself the possibility for a few nice evenings before it all went to shit? He warned Steve, right? And he wanted this, he wanted it so much. Steve's the first person he's been able to talk to like a semi-normal person in a long time, it's like finding a piece of himself in someone else.]
I don't want to hurt you.
[That's the truth of it. His voice is just a bit tired there, like he knows it would happen eventually. But he's not turning down Steve again, he's just scared. He wants it, but he doesn't want to inevitably ruin it.]
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But maybe that's Steve's lookout to find out. Why should he deny himself the possibility for a few nice evenings before it all went to shit? He warned Steve, right? And he wanted this, he wanted it so much. Steve's the first person he's been able to talk to like a semi-normal person in a long time, it's like finding a piece of himself in someone else.]
I don't want to hurt you.
[That's the truth of it. His voice is just a bit tired there, like he knows it would happen eventually. But he's not turning down Steve again, he's just scared. He wants it, but he doesn't want to inevitably ruin it.]