[Steve's pretty much screaming internally now. He's fucked this up so badly. The knife hits him, and he lets go, and realizes the only way to contain this situation is to lead Bucky out of it.
So he takes a deep breath.]
God, Buck, I'm so sorry.
[He hates how things have turned out, and it's all his fault.
But there's no time for that. He turns and runs. If Bucky is angry enough, he'll chase Steve out of there, maybe to safety. If he has even a modicum of a clear head, he'll get himself out of there and disappear out of Steve's life again, probably forever.
But Steve can't be responsible for Bucky being taken back in, he can't.
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So he takes a deep breath.]
God, Buck, I'm so sorry.
[He hates how things have turned out, and it's all his fault.
But there's no time for that. He turns and runs. If Bucky is angry enough, he'll chase Steve out of there, maybe to safety. If he has even a modicum of a clear head, he'll get himself out of there and disappear out of Steve's life again, probably forever.
But Steve can't be responsible for Bucky being taken back in, he can't.
So he runs.]