When he went off to basic training they had been so close, and then stayed that way through letters. But it makes sense that Steve's life moved on while Bucky was imprisoned and, even if Bucky couldn't have written to him, Steve must have been hurt and distanced himself even more to deal with that. Now he's got to the point where he thinks Bucky would only offer those things out of obligation.
It makes a sudden swell of despair tighten his chest. It doesn't seem fair. He clung onto this hope of getting his life back, it's what helped him survive and resist when he was in that place, and he's not got any of it back. He's too scared to contact his own family, he can't go to college and do any of the things he wanted, and now even Steve doesn't want to do all the things they planned to do. But life isn't fair. While he hung onto hopes, everyone else was moving on and living their lives.
"...right, can't have you stealing my girl. Guess you better stay here."
He smiles, but it looks forced and doesn't quite hide the disappointment beneath. He's just trying to do what Steve asked and not make this a big deal, he's already fucked up enough without messing up everyone else's lives for his selfish crap.
"So, uh, college. Aside from life drawing, how's it going? Top of the class and making professional inroads yet?"
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When he went off to basic training they had been so close, and then stayed that way through letters. But it makes sense that Steve's life moved on while Bucky was imprisoned and, even if Bucky couldn't have written to him, Steve must have been hurt and distanced himself even more to deal with that. Now he's got to the point where he thinks Bucky would only offer those things out of obligation.
It makes a sudden swell of despair tighten his chest. It doesn't seem fair. He clung onto this hope of getting his life back, it's what helped him survive and resist when he was in that place, and he's not got any of it back. He's too scared to contact his own family, he can't go to college and do any of the things he wanted, and now even Steve doesn't want to do all the things they planned to do. But life isn't fair. While he hung onto hopes, everyone else was moving on and living their lives.
"...right, can't have you stealing my girl. Guess you better stay here."
He smiles, but it looks forced and doesn't quite hide the disappointment beneath. He's just trying to do what Steve asked and not make this a big deal, he's already fucked up enough without messing up everyone else's lives for his selfish crap.
"So, uh, college. Aside from life drawing, how's it going? Top of the class and making professional inroads yet?"